What Was…

but no longer is.


Perhaps posting this is part of me letting go.


It’s Free, It’s Already Paid For

The title of this post is what it is, I chose  that title because it is true and I myself am still learning this.

As I might have shared before I’m partially  dependant on my dad and my fiance. Before them I am completely dependant on my heavenly Father. He most certainly is THE BEST provider I have and will always have.

Yet I cannot deny that with all three of these individuals I try to help them when I can. It is a way to SHOW them I am thankful and that I love them. I know I can simply say it and move on with my life,  but I know actions speak louder than words.  It is my actions that are seen and proved by those who see.

For my dad, he paid me as his secretary. To pay his bills for him and do other secretarial work. I don’t mind this because he works so hard, even doing overtime perhaps sometimes daily.

For my fiancé,  it’s a bit more difficult to help him as I help my dad. We do not yet live together, so I’ve helped him with things like setting up his EZPASS account before our vacation this year. That’s one thing I can remember now. I also spend time with him when he’s off and I’m available. Yesterday was his day off, so he had what I now call a lazy day, which is okay with me because he works hard, is tired most times it seems and God has given us 7 days in the week, allowing us 1 day or rest, the Sabbath day. At first I didn’t like it for two reasons, but now I understand. After all,  he has a full time position now, something we’ve both prayed that he’d receive. 

For God,  my heavenly Father, I aim and try to have my devotional first thing in the morning, sometimes after praying, sometimes after brushing my teeth. At times it does not work out like this because I’m traveling, because I’ve slept over someone elses home or some other reason that would keep me from spending time with the Lord early in the morning after waking up. Like today, I have a second interview that is in the airport. The interview time is from 8am to 10pm. Which is why I’ve prayed, read my first devotional and am now writing this post. It’s 7:35am now so it’s almost ‘show time.’ 

My point I’d this post is to show that some of us do want to pay back those who’ve helped us. For these three individuals it is so with me. For God, I have learned that I do not have to pay for my salvation because it has alrwady been paid for. Still, until it is no longer a habit, I will still aim to literally seek Him first in the mornings. His work says to seek Him, His kingdom and His righteousness first and He will add unto me clothing, food and whatever else is mentioned in Matthew chapter 6. It’s a chapter I like. So give it a read 😉 .

If you have not accepted Jesus to be your Lord and Savior,  you may do so now by saying a personal prayer or going on over to the salvation page. 

Thank you for reading, have agreat day, afternoon or night.

Love God


Jesus’ Peace

Here is the insight from todays Our Daily Bread devotional reading,

Jesus repeatedly talks about peace in John 14, yet He would soon be arrested and His disciples would be hiding in fear. In verse 1 Jesus offered peace by encouraging them not to be troubled by the events that were coming on them. Instead, they were to look forward to reunion with Him and a home in the Father’s house. Then in today’s reading Jesus rooted this peace in the coming of the Holy Spirit—reminding us that, in part, the fruit of the Spirit is peace (Gal. 5:22–23). Jesus concluded His words to them with the promise of peace for everyday living: “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world” (John 16:33). For now and forever, His great gift of peace carries us through all the seasons of life. 

How do you see Jesus’s peace present in your life today?

This morning,  I see Jesus’ peace in knowing that He is already supplying all of my needs even though I am not working outside of the home in some establishment. I try my best to seek Him first so that it would be unto me as is said in Matthew 6:33. I desire for my loved ones to do the same and find the benefits in seeking God first.

Have you made the choice to seek God first? This is something we have to chose to do everyday. Choose God first or our own desires first. Choosing my own desire first does not make much sense to me because God can give me the desires of my heart when I delight in Him.

But first and most importantly seek (aim at, strive after) His kingdom and His righteousness [His way of doing and being right–the attitude and character of God], and all these things will be given to you also.


Delight yourself in the Lord , And He will give you the desires and petitions of your heart.


“I have told you these things while I am still with you.  But the Helper (Comforter, Advocate, Intercessor–Counselor, Strengthener, Standby), the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name [in My place, to represent Me and act on My behalf], He will teach you all things. And He will help you remember everything that I have told you.   Peace I leave with you; My [perfect] peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be afraid. [Let My perfect peace calm you in every circumstance and give you courage and strength for every challenge.]  You heard Me tell you, ‘I am going away, and I am coming back to you.’ If you [really] loved Me, you would have rejoiced, because I am going [back] to the Father, for the Father is greater than I.  I have told you now before it happens, so that when it does take place, you may believe and have faith [in Me].  I will not speak with you much longer, for the ruler of the world (Satan) is coming. And he has no claim on Me [no power over Me nor anything that he can use against Me];  but so that the world may know [without any doubt] that I love the Father, I do exactly as the Father has commanded Me [and act in full agreement with Him]. Get up, let us go from here.

JOHN 14:25‭-‬31 AMP

“These things I have spoken to you while being present with you.  But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all things that I said to you.  Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.  You have heard Me say to you, ‘I am going away and coming back to you.’ If you loved Me, you would rejoice because I said,  ‘I am going to the Father,’ for My Father is greater than I. “And now I have told you before it comes, that when it does come to pass, you may believe.  I will no longer talk much with you, for the ruler of this world is coming, and he has nothing in Me.  But that the world may know that I love the Father, and as the Father gave Me commandment, so I do. Arise, let us go from here.
John 14:25‭-‬31 NKJV 


About a week ago or more, my fiancé and I went to church. We went to the 11:15am service, which wasn’t the service I originally wanted to go to.  I thank God that everything that morning worked out. We stayed, though he wanted to go because he was not used to long sermons. What if we had left? We would have missed the blessing that God had in store for us.

 The sermon spoke to me and what I was dealing with at the time. So, I went to the altar and Brian came with-after all he was sitting on the outer part of the pew. We went, a lady prayed for both of us. I didn’t hear all of what she said because of my hearing difficulty after the stroke. But Brian said she prayed about my hearing although we had not told her anything about my hearing. I was taken a back when he said this to me, but it is evidence that the Holy Spirit was in action! We were invited to go to the chapel and we went after I got my bag. 

That morning was such a blessing to us. We went to the chapel and filled out the prayer form. We ended up being the last people in the chapel. The women there ministered heavily to us. They were prayer warriors and it seemed, they were also prophets. They prayed for us and practically counseled us. 

We were told that we should not get married yet because God wants us to be rooted and have a firm foundation. A foundation in Him and maybe in our lives. God knows. 

I thought it was crazy that Brian thought I was the only one that needed to have a firm foundation due to me not yet working or having a bachelor’s degree. He has his degrees up to his masters degree and is now working full time as a manager over patient food service in a hospital.  It find it crazy when he said that. He didn’t say it until sometime after we had left the chapel, but today I will not focus on that because I don’t want to lose the peace I woke up with.

Todays devitional from Our Daily Bread is about foundation. Foundation in Christ. It stems from when Jesus spoke about building a house on a firm foundation or on no foundation. The house built on foundation stood firmly and solid when the storm came. The house built without foundation was destroyed when the storm came. This is why Jesus’ advice is to build our house on a firm foundation. Jesus is that firm foundation and if we build on Him, we will not shake, stumble or be destroyed. How amazing is that if we build on Christ? It is amazing!

Which causes me to think about the future home my fiancé and I will have. My hope and desire is that our foundation, our relationship, our physical home environment will be solid on Christ, so that it will not be destroyed. 

Do you already have a firm foundation? If so, in what ways do you know that your foundation, what you are building on, is firm?

Are you building on Christ?

If you have not accepted Christ, I invite you to do so now.  Pray and ask Jesus to come into your heart, repent of any wrong doing, sin that you have done and accept his forgiveness. 

Be blessed. You are already loved by the Heavenly Father.


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