This thing of going first is risky at times.
It is going first with risk of what you give not being seen or accepted.
Going first comes with the risk of being vulnerable.
Going first is not easy for some of us.
It requires us to be, what some would say, mature.
Going first is loving first.
Pushing past the hurt of what another person said or did and still choosing to love them. Loving them because you and I, we know it is right and we know it is what Abba requires of us.
From experience I can admit that going first is certainly hard. I thought that the more I went first the easier it would become, but I’m finding out now that is not how it works. So now, I consider my flesh dying. My flesh, the past of me that is selfish, that only thinks about myself, that cares little about others, that hates other people. Galatians chapter 5 gives a greater description of the flesh and also of the Holy spirit.
Todays devotional talks about going first, loving first. God, Abba, heavenly Father, Jehovah loved His creation first. He loves us first at all times.
This morning I realized He loves me more than my fiancé does. I see that my fiancé loves me, but by events I now see that my soon to be husbands love for me is not greater than God’s love for me. God’s love for me is something I can be content in and content with. It is a journey for me to say something like this, because I know how important it is to keep God first in my heart and by my actions.
When I have children, I will have to love them first.
After loving God and after loving my husband – as is taught by the Lord knows who, because I don’t know where or who it came from.